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Euphoria
04:43
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Euphoria
Lost in my memory
A single moment in time
Can last an eternity
I lose myself in each moment
like a riddle you never solve, you never forget
and while hung in suspense, i’m not trying to find peace
in this bliss!
We all live in a world of nothing,
but in the void we find
A simple memory can redefine
(can redefine)
Each and every day I'm trying to find my way
back to that place in time
When I felt the warmth of Euphoria
and everything was fine
Euphoria
Lost in my memory
A single moment in time
Can last an eternity
You find yourself lost in these meaningless habits
repeated day after day
and now you’re begging for a purpose
to make your mundane life worth it
We all live in a world of nothing,
but in the void we find
A simple memory can redefine
(can redefine)
Each and every day I'm trying to find my way
back to that place in time
When I felt the warmth of Euphoria
and everything was fine
Nothing is fine
Euphoria
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She steps in, a being made of crystal
Shine so blinding, her gaze feels like a loaded pistol
We began and her touch is endless
I feel her purity all I want is this
We fell apart with our open wounds
I would get lost in you forever if you’d let me
Noosed in this moment together
we’ll die a little slower
I hear her breathing, thinking
why can’t we hang like this forever?
She is night
Fading light
Dripping in white
Going alone when I could be by her side
Never mine
Lost in time
Hollow smile that used to feel so sublime
I feel you slipping from me
I feel you slipping from me
Deny yourself
divine love
Fleeting
and full of glass
A mirage in the shape of you
I want to hold her aura in my arms
Labyrinth underneath her skin
Twisting in the indigo
Hallways lead to more dead ends
until the end I feel the glow
Drifting in the flame
Linger in the embers
I thought I saw her heart open wide
Now I’m lost forever
Drifting apart, why can’t we be...
Noosed in this moment together
we’ll die a little slower
I hear her breathing, thinking
why can’t we hang like this forever?
I feel you slipping from me
I feel you slipping from me
Deny yourself
divine love
Fleeting
and full of glass
Becoming one then ripped apart
Together we are an ending
Becoming one then ripped apart
Together we are an ending
AN ENDING.....
I would get lost in you....
I would get lost in you forever
if you’d let me
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When I'm laughing
I'm not hiding
I don't have to remember I'm dying
For a moment
I'm not trying
to tell myself
I will or will not be surviving
Only I know what twists and turns and always burns in my throat
It's the words in the form of worms and dirt,
I decompose again and again, a natural reaction I need a distraction
If my comfort is a lie, let it last -
- til the end of time, Can I close my eyes
to pretend a place with untroubled faces
and situations where I don't face this
Alive but so alone
A smile to hide what lies inside this hole
We sit in tandem
Staring at screens with people inside them
Who are paid to take us away from pain and malicious silence
My mind is crossed but not with the thought of what’s to come
It's on these people and the fact they've kept me around this long
They make the same deadpan joke
It always gets me every time
I join in, we play along
But something's wrong
Stare into the void
So saccharine
Like stains on these walls
It fights as it they laugh with me
My head like a stone
As I fought with the snare
The harder I pull
the faster life’s leaving me
Choking while grating my teeth
All this means nothing to me
Choking while grating my teeth
All this means nothing to me
When I'm laughing I'm not hiding
I don't have to remember I'm dying
For a moment I'm not trying to tell myself I will or will not be surviving
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Shrouded by endless days filled with fear
This sickness in my brain keeps me here
I’m becoming unstitched
What parts of me will be left
When I wake up, if I wake up
What happens next?
Deteriorate
Disintegrate
Fade to black
I hope I don’t,
I hope I don’t come back
The fog surrounding me is fake
The rest of my life will not wait
For me to wake
For me to wake up
I won’t wake up
I won’t wake up
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dysmorphia (im so sorry)
04:52
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I’m caught twisted, red handed, but the blood is only mine
I'm so sorry
I cast the shadows that lurk in all my corners
Laid beneath tombstones of broken mirrors
Shaking limbs; they too want to escape me
At gods mercy change this void I call a body
I would take all 7 years
If it meant never seeing my face again
Destroy the vessel
housing vile images of me
I'm so sorry, I'm this body
you'll never see what I see, broken and rotting
I'm so sorry, Disembodied
I can never save me, what im becoming
You’ll never see what I see,
broken and rotting
I can never save me,
what I’m becoming
I’m so sorry
Plaguing, gnawing
Eating everything I know
My shape haunting
change this void I call a body
Plaguing, gnawing
Eating everything I know
My shape haunting
change this void I call a body
Making nothing feel like home
What’s inside rips flesh from my bones
I’m so sorry, I’m this body
I’m so sorry, disembodied
You’ll never see what I see, broken and rotting
I can never save me, what I’m becoming
I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry
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Legacy
03:28
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Here lies my accomplishments
few and far between
You can find them in the memorial park
of people with no legacy
What will become of this vessel?
Will it be torn into fractions from mental gymnastics?
Will I prove myself wrong?
Will I prove myself wrong?
You want an ending? A happy ending?
What am I thinking?
Nothing is promised here
Nothing is promised besides this fear I feel inside
Nothing is promised
Nothing is promised
Nothing is promised and I can't find
I can’t find my place in life
I'm drowning in all my fears
Jaded by all of these years
I'm losing faith
I’m losing faith
Here lies the king of failure
It was nothing but a dream
You can find me in the memorial park
of buried hopes, lost destiny
Everything is ending
I'll never be your happy ending
My eyes have gone dry
Looking for a reason to live this blistered existence
I'm drowning in all my fears
Jaded by all of these years
I'm losing faith
I’m losing faith
My mistakes have sealed my fate
and there’s nothing left to give
I’m losing faith
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Your eyes reflect my own expression
Like someone I knew from long ago
A face from a life I can’t remember
A mirage in the shape of you
You are more enigma than mystery
An image dissolving
As it appears
I want to hold your aura
Yet I feel nothing
Familiar yet foreign
Unknowing, unraveling
You walk in the shadows of my perception
You speak with a fondness that I cannot recall
I find myself lost in this place
This crude tomb that encompasses me
White fades to black
An image of you and everything I once knew
A gap forms
An infinite chasm
Between intrigue and resolution
Questions poised above expected answers
What I know and see entangles itself
With an unresolved state of being
Words pivot and swerve across diversions
I awake and don’t know where I am
I awake and don’t know who I am
Familiar yet foreign
Unknowing, unraveling
You walk in the shadows of my perception
You speak with a fondness that I cannot recall
Reeling memories
In a film of our identity
Starring you, watching me
A story unseen
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8. |
Dead Oaks
02:52
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I can't feel your bones but I can see them
And I can't call you up without a reason
I can take a thousand miles
And I can drive for hours to your house in the summer
But I could stay for longer if you wanted me to
Oh oh oh oh oh I've been up
And oh oh I don't sleep enough
And oh oh I know we don't talk as much
But I can hear you still
Oh oh oh oh oh I've been up
And oh oh I don't sleep enough
And oh oh I know we don't talk as much
But I can hear you still
Oh oh oh oh oh I've been up
And oh oh I don't sleep enough
And oh oh I know we don't talk as much
But I can hear your
Voice on the phone
When you're up all alone
In your room
Cause I am up too
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9. |
_______// [feat. Gamby]
04:24
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Nothing is promised, I
and nothing can bring me life
and I know this
and I know this
I can’t feel anything
and I can see my world ending
and I know this
and I know this
A smile to hide what’s inside
the end is on standby
I’ve lost my faith
I’ve lost my fight
A smile to hide what’s inside
the end is on standby
I’ve lost my faith
I’ve lost my fight
Lost my faith
lost my mind
now I know
nothing’s fine
I can hardly feel the warmth anymore
I can hardly feel the warmth
I can hardly feel the warmth anymore
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10. |
blue jay
05:43
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We all live in a world of nothing
But in the void we find
A simple memory can redefine
And you will find your way back to that place in time
In the end you find yourself searching
All for nothing
In the end you found yourself waiting to die
I saw my life in a shade of grey
The chemicals in my brain, they crippled me
I was begging for peace
There was nothing to stop my need to be:
released into eternal sleep
(released into eternal sleep)
Turn away from this
You will go back and find the place you felt pure bliss
And through it all you will finally see existence is:
Euphoria!
You will wake up!
Blistered from the Hell you came from, you will live!
In the end you find yourself searching
All for nothing
In the end you found yourself waiting to die
I know you want the answers
It keeps you up at night
A blistered existence is all that you know
Because you won't let go
I’m finally awake
And gasping for air under the crashing waves
I found my place inside them
When my will to live was erased
Because it’s deeper than just existing...
Because it’s deeper than just existing...
The only thing keeping me alive is wanting to die!
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